Saturday, October 24, 2009

Random Thoughts On Grieving

Grief is such a weird thing. I can talk about Timmy to just about anyone at just about any time. As long as I don't have to explain for the 100,000,000th time that he's already gone, it feels SO good to talk about him. It makes me feel like he isn't forgotten. But when we went to Red Robin this afternoon, I didn't realize until we got there that it was the first time I had been there since Timmy died. When the hostess asked how many people were in our party, it really bothered me. Who knew? I'll have to go again now and see if it's better the next time around. I mean, we go to Outback all the time and that same question never bothers me there.


Kathie said...

Life is full of those "gotcha" moments it seems. You go around a corner thinking it's just a corner, when in fact it's a sudden moment of emotion and memory and dizziness.

Thanks for sharing about the surprise corners :) Love you.

Anonymous said...

I've told other parents and friends, grief comes in waves that sometimes we don't expect. For me, I still can't hear anything from Plumb, it makes me too sad. I think about rocking and snuggling with sweet Timmy, and I'm emotional enough right now as it is. I switch the radio station.

I'm so impressed by your courage for going back to where you felt the pain. You are truly one of the bravest women I know - and I'm so proud that you're my friend!!!


Mom/Nana said...

Pictures of Timmy scroll by on my computer screen all the time. Sometimes they make me smile, and other times they make me weep. Praying for you!